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The Shock Heard Around the World
Please no matter what your opinion is about suicide, I am asking that you please have some respect for Robin Williams’ family and friends. A person has taken his life and in order for a person to do that we can’t possible understand the pain and suffering that he was going through at that moment and what those that are left behind are feeling and dealing with.
Yesterday Jack in the Box wanted to know if the Robin Williams thing was a hoax. I had no idea what he was talking about so started to look. Saw lots of hoaxes online from 2012, 2013, and then saw a new article from 8-11-14 and realized it was no hoax.
Words can not express how this made me feel. I never got to met him but I looked up to him as a person. He was bipolar and he was ADHD and he had made a life for himself. He was funny and I often wondered what was hiding behind his humor; because I do that as well.
I have seen many things. Some calling this act selfish. Some expressing how sorry they are for his family. Some recalling what he meant to them.
The statement from his wife, Susan Schneider: “This morning, I lost my husband and my best friend, while the world lost one of its most beloved artists and beautiful human beings. I am utterly heartbroken. On behalf of Robin’s family, we are asking for privacy during our time of profound grief. As he is remembered, it is our hope the focus will not be on Robin’s death, but on the countless moments of joy and laughter he gave to millions.” The statement from President Obama about Robin Williams passing:
“Robin Williams was an airman, a doctor, a genie, a nanny, a president, a professor, a bangarang Peter Pan, and everything in between. But he was one of a kind. He arrived in our lives as an alien — but he ended up touching every element of the human spirit. He made us laugh. He made us cry. He gave his immeasurable talent freely and generously to those who needed it most — from our troops stationed abroad to the marginalized on our own streets. The Obama family offers our condolences to Robin’s family, his friends, and everyone who found their voice and their verse thanks to Robin Williams.” The statement from his manager, David Steinberg: “Nobody made the world laugh like Robin Williams. My brother, my friend, my soulmate, I will miss you.”
Depression is real. Depression is scary. It is hard for those who have not suffered from a mental health issue to really understand those depths of despair.
Robin was getting help. Sometimes help isn’t enough. But that does not mean don’t seek it out.
But I still am encouraging anyone who is suffering from any mental health issues to seek out help. Find someone to talk to. Talk to your doctor and try to get on medication. Go seek out a pastor, best friend or support group.
Mental health is real. Mental health does not get enough attention in our country. Mental health isn’t treated the same with health insurance companies. Mental health carries a stigma. Mental health is pushed aside. Mental health is made a joke. Mental health has different degrees of severity. Mental health needs to be seriously addressed and changed so that access is easier for those who need it.
I am bipolar. I am on medication. I have been addicted to self-medicating. I have avoided help. I have sought help out. I have taken meds and stopped because I was “better”. I have been in a mental health hospital for both mania and depression/suicidal thoughts. I was a typical bipolar person until about 9 years ago.
I am praying for each person who was touched by his life! Not only did he have a family and friends, he did touch the world with his movies and his giving and doing. He was a one of a kind, unique person, and he was real. He had struggles and he was willing to admit them.
Please if you are suffering in any way from depression, addiction, mania or any mental health issue; seek out help.
Robin McLaurin Williams
July 21, 1951-August 11, 2014
Progress
It isn’t what I was hoping for but it was progress. I had a doctor appointment this morning about the pain I have been having. I totally lost it in my doctor’s office. I am a normally emotional person but pain doesn’t typically bring me to tears. Lately though that is a totally different story! Totally!
My doctor is sending me to see one of the top allergists in the state. She said it would probably be a few months before I got in to see him though. The office called today and I about died when I she says okay lets schedule you I have one on August 1st or then we have them in January 2015. Are you kidding me?! August seems forever and so does January. That is 12 months away! A whole year!
My doctor said she was okay with me starting on the generic form of cymbalta. So I am hoping that the next time I go into see my PDoc that she will put me on it. I am hoping that it will help decrease the pain because I need to start writing a different end to my story!
We are all in control of the story we write. There are things that happen to us that are out of control, but we are still in control of how we react and what we choose to do about those things. We should be praying and doing what God has for us. We are in control of our story and I want to start writing a new one.
I am hopeful tonight. There is a long time before we will have answers but right now, I can choose to start making smaller choices and changes so I can start writing a different story ending for me.
I am happy with the small progress we made today at the doctor’s office. I wasn’t sure what to expect and was grateful we got some where.
Muck This Pain
I am over the pain. It is hard to know when the pain you feel is a new pain or just a new place for the old pain.
I hate going to the doctor because I feel as if they look at me like a hypochondriac. Is it true? Probably not because I don’t leave with pain meds and most of the time I don’t leave with meds.
I am just seriously tired of feelings this way.
I wish I could just give it away. But I wouldn’t really want to give it to anyone else.
And my new pain, I am just going to assume it has to do with women issues or pray it is because if this is a new place for my old pain I am going to lose it!
Fall/Winter and I Are Not Friends
This sickness in this house that starts when the weather goes back and forth between warm and cold kills us here.
Today I had a doctor appointment for the two youngest monkey’s. Middle Monkey woke up complaining of his throat hurting and I sent him to school anyway.
Doctor feels it is just a virus they are going to have to work through. Except I don’t know how much more I can take of working through it because it seems like we are just passing one thing after another back and forth.
My monkey’s immune system seems to be taking a beating. I am feeling much better. Almost 100%. At least compared to what I would normally feel like on day 3/4 of being sick without oils! My monkey’s are okay with me using oils on them and I have been but I just don’t think I have the right ones. I really need to get some RC for them.
Here is hoping that tomorrow is better for them. But since youngest monkey has a fever today that means no school tomorrow.
Slow and steady wins the race right? So if we are slow and steady getting better, we will win!
Waiting Game
I have been having issues with my shoulder. I went into the Dr. again today to see what she thinks.
She wants to do an MRI. Believes it is either an inflammation of the bursa or a rotator cuff injury. The downside to needing to do an MRI is I have to wait on the x-ray results.
Back in January when they did the colonoscopy the Dr. out not take me off of my warfarin. So because they found the polyps the Dr. had to use metal clips inside of me. And as I heal they clips will fall off and come out.
I don’t heal well and even though I was told they should be gone in 2 months I am not counting on it.
So now I just wait. Wait to find out what they want to do and wait to find out if I can have the MRI and wait to find out what is actually wrong.
I hate the waiting game!
Middle Monkey Has His Mom’s Skills!
A dumbbell was left in front of his door. I am not sure why but it was left there. And he didn’t pay attention and walked right into it I guess.
We went to the med center and their x-ray machine available. Suggest I head over to one of their other ones. Mind you the med centers around here now close at 8 PM instead of 10 PM and it was already 7 PM. So on a normal day it would not have been a big deal but it wasn’t a normal day. It was snowing, heavy wet snow onto icy roads. The roads were treacherous but still being a good mom I was going to attempt to get him to the next one. It took us over 30 minutes to get about a mile in a half. It was after passing someone who had spun out and was sideways on a hill and a head on collision that I said sorry buddy this is going to have to wait until tomorrow morning.
Ended up heading to the med center after speaking to the Dr. office. In many ways I think we were luckier to have gone to the med center. Not that I don’t like our Dr. office but sometimes I think when they know the patient they push things off. Well that is how I feel at times (with the other Dr.’s not our personal one).
They got him right in. The Dr. he saw was nice and concerned. He got in for x-rays and confirmed that thankfully he didn’t break the two toes that were bruised and sore, only one. So right at the base his pinky toe is broken. And then we had to wait for the radiologist to read the films because the Dr. felt like there might have been another break involving the growth plate.
And we waited with his foot in a soaking bath because having broke his foot by the toe wasn’t enough for him. He had to cut open the toe next to the broken pinky so that it would be considered an open fracture. A fracture wasn’t good enough for my Middle Monkey he had to also be put on antibiotics!
And the Dr. comes back into the room to tell us, it is only one break but it is a break into the growth plate so because of that we can’t treat it the way it would normally be treated. It is no longer lined up correctly so we are going to put a temp splint on it until you can see the pediatric ortho. Which you need to see in the next 3 days. No weight-bearing on it until then. And of course there were some other instructions but basically stay off the foot and see the ortho before the week is out.
Yup my Middle Monkey has my skills!
Yuck, Snow and Driving
I drove to Holland this morning for my Middle Monkey to have an appointment with his PDoc.
Typically this drive takes us at most 30 minutes to get there but we have been having winter weather. And since Holland is right on the lake shoreline it has been getting hit with snow. Roads are not the best.
Of course I always make the appointments for 8 AM so that means most of the time to make sure we get there on time we are leaving the house around 7:15 in the morning. Today though we made sure to leave by 6:45 just to be on the safe side. It was a really good thing we did! We got there exactly at 8 AM.
We rushed inside. And I go to check in and they tell me I am sorry but your doctor isn’t here today. We tried to call you earlier this week at (012) 345-6789. Yeah that isn’t my number and has never been my number!
So I was upset but at the same time I felt bad for my Middle Monkey’s doctor, she wasn’t in all week because her husband had passed away.
She wanted me to make an appointment for the following week but I can’t afford that. Gas wise it just isn’t an option. So we have an appointment at the end of February now.
And then we started the long trek back to get Middle Monkey back to school.
And last week his schedule got changed. We got a notice in email on Friday and his got notice that as of Monday, 80 students had new schedules. I knew with his personality and how much he had struggled all year-long it was probably going to cause a problem. I was going to give it until Friday to see how he did. I didn’t need to give it to Friday. He was a complete wreck all week-long. So when I was at the school I figured I would go in and talk to whomever I needed to in order to get him switched back.
But of course it wasn’t as easy as just switching him back. It was a matter of having to work through all of it and find spots in the classes with his old teachers in an attempt to get him back. We did finally get a schedule set up so that he is back with all of his old teachers and got him into an academic support group. That class is going to allow him extra help on his math which he has been really struggling with all year-long.
So even though driving to Holland was a bust, at least I got him back to the classes he needs to be in!
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